why

i am now up to a point where i just stop, and suddenly ask myself: why am i here? why am i doing medicine?
yes, it's a rhetorical question. i still remember all the reasons why i took up medicine in the first place. to help people, and about the hadith (which i can't really remember the exact wordings now, but i do remember the points) etc2. what have got the question to pop up in my head again is because i'm stressed. i feel so out of place. i don't remember anything i learned. it's like i never learn anything. at all. and then all my colleagues are saying they're stressed. heh. yeah right. try being me. ask them questions, they can answer most of it. can't memorise one word from a sentence, that's all. stress.